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| .....It's just that i recall, a time when i was small..... someone promised that they'd catch me............and then they let me fall................ I have a........ problem...... its very scary and much worse than i initially thought... one person other than my mother knows.... she is my lifeline right now.... i love her and appreciate her sooo much for that..... i am scared..... really scared....... How do you find who you want to be? i wish i could, cause every time i think i have figured it out, its like God decides to spin me in a 180 and make me think otherwise. I am in an AMAZING band..... but now im scared i might have to leave it for reason having to do with the above mentioned^^^^^ . Is it possible to know what we are to become, until we just..... become it? Perhaps we are meant to just be left hanging in the air and that is the joy that comes with growing up..................... FUCK GROWING UP! with love I am scared | | |
| I'm afraid to fly....... and I don't know why. I'm jealous of the people who aren't afraid to die......... ok so the words of this new song i am learning is absolutely amazing! as is my life..... i lie where i am at...... i think...... see i dunno exactly what to do with it so i dunno if it is amazing or not........ perhaps it is, or maybe its not...... see i was with some old friends the other day that i hadn't seen in a long long time..... and one of them made me think.... will i really be missed when i leave this place? i mean for college? its very hard to tell.... but see i guess that is truly how we are remembered, and i think i have done perty well...... but even if i am not missed, i like what i have done, what i have been.......so i guess that, in and of itself is enough. but for those people i leave here when i leave and i wont get to see that often... know that you have impacted me, and helped make me who i am and are a part of what i have done and for that i thank you..... some might find its odd that i am writin this now, but if you notice i tend to wait months between posts...... i just wanted you all to know that i love you.... some more than others(you know who you are) ! so comment me now! | | |
| NEW POST......just cause. just for reference, she is beautiful, and shes ALL MINE! | | |
| hello everyone....bummer.......but better now........if you know what i mean then you know what i mean....but if ya dont......ask......!
i am alright.....and plan on stayin that way! | | |
| hello everyone!
another day of running has come to an end
and a lil but of love i would like to send
to those warriors of the morning id like to tell
ive enjoyed our time as we walk through hell
you all have hearts of lions this im sure
because not every human would be able to endure
we are the beasts of the world that we live in
cause not matter the heat, we NEVER give in! | | |
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